I am so lost on what I am supposed to do right now. I wanted to be a firefighter more than anything a few months ago, I started the interview process and now feel nothing but repulsion towards it. It is clear that I shouldn’t become a firefighter, so now what?
Engineering has my attention again, I just want to do something useful with it. I hate the materialism of today and feel like most products are useless if not harmful. I don’t know much of a way around this, but I will just keep looking. I miss working outside a lot, but I still get a lot of enjoyment from engineering. Maybe I can find something involving both.